Bangalore was not as rocking as i thought it was. May be i saw the best sites on movies & encountered with the darkest sides of the city. I wasn’t sure why i need to be there so urgently if I am not the one under treatment. They gave me a light smile, a smile that seemed like if they are hiding a lot of pain. Right then i noticed a beautiful young woman on the next bed in the same room. She looked sad, pale yet so beautiful she was. I don’t remember her name, her whole body went paralyzed one day, suddenly. I was 13 years old back then, not at all in a state of mind to understand medical terms & it’s problems. We went inside for a few tests. The funny part was, the nurse was trying to take my blood sample, but not a drop was coming out. then they tried squishing my arm.
You might don’t understand how lucky it is to have a healthy body. There were so many little kids with cancer to autism to total paralysed state. I wonder why they have to face these, when total bitchy people are having a happily ever after.
Few hours later, the doctors came in. Honestly speaking, they were less doctors, more like robots who hates them selves. After passing some medical reports to each other, they were talking about her conditions, most of which I didn’t understand at that time, all i could remember was Amma with tears rolling out of her eyes. But few minutes later this 13 year old teenager & her 10 year old sister, heard doctor asking as to not think about marriage in future. Guess what, I am a total Shah Rukh Khan fan, I have always believed in true love & fairy tales, just like any normal teenager thought of having a cute love story, becoming mother of a few children & that sweet happily ever after concept.
I would have felt ok if the doctors might have told us in a better nice way. But they never thought how hard it could be for 2 girls, to know & realize how hard life & future could be.
& then I left every thing. I did fall in love, but I never wanted him to be involved in my problems. I wasn’t ready to share anything i was going through, So i make reasons to fight & stay away from people. Then that part of me became permanent forever. We were crying for atleast 2 hours. Then i came out of the room, sat down on a bunch kept outside the hospital. I saw them, those tiny little legs unable to stand straight on the ground. Those little smiles, wanting to live more, but can’t. Those pale sad faces of parents, whispering inside, how will they live after they die.
A healthy body is the biggest treasure anyone can have. Not money, not a bungalow, is what you need. Your body is the only thing that sticks with you until your last breath, take care of it.